I really cant decide on how i'd like my last post here to begin. The backspace button isnt helping and neither is my pea sized brain. Ohwell.
Had SAAP last night. Laughed till I literally choked. Awesomestest & loveliest people ♥
Yay, bf's cupcakes were delicious. We shared a huge tub of frozen yogurt as usual. SAAP always makes dessert taste extra good! Oh, kath, xy, jer, short and I had two huge tubs at holland just last sat haha. Miss you jiang! Met bf to shop last wed. Haha, we got so excited over buying lots of nice food. Braved the rain to visit jer and short at rochor w awesome popiah. Anw, we make such a bad duo when its raining cos, she's afraid of lightning and i'm afraid of thunder HAHA. And i kept calling her by her full name accidentally. OH xinying haha. Walked from orchard to bugis on a school day faints. Yay cant wait for tuesday!!
Btw, thankyou for your really sweet card today puffer fish! Hope you didnt break your new furnitures today, fatty haha. (:
Just talked to Cage on the phone for really long. Just like we used to while we were back in Cedar! :D
We talked about the good ole days for abit. And all those little dramatic things which happened in the past which seem really amusing and insignificant now. I think when really gross things happen, it'll help knowing that years down the road these seemingly major happening could be just another phone conversation joke. Really takes the burden off you and your gross happenings. Sometimes when you think that your shoulders are carrying the burdens of the world, you should just shrug, stand aside and watch. Maybe then, you'll realise that you've been carrying an imaginary load cos, the world still seems to be spinning with or without you. Ought not to take yourself so seriously sometimes! Afterall, life's but a walking shadow, a poor player that struts and frets his hour upon stage and then is heard no more.
"Come what come may,
Time and the hour runs through the roughest day."
Ah macbeth, my memory hasnt failed me yet, yay.

Okay, goodluck studying or pretending to study and, happy surviving darned school everyone. 50 days to the start of A's and 74 days to the end of it. Then, life begins yet again hooray. I shall have a dramatic goodbye speech haha yay.
Dear blog, you've been faithfully there rain or shine but, i'm afraid its time to say goodbye. Greener pastures with controlled viewership calls. Takecare. I promise to visit! (: So nostagic, sighh
August 2006 - September 2009


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

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♥ Monday, September 14, 2009

9:51 PM

You know the old saying on how you should never laugh too much cos, you're bound to cry thereafter.
Its one of those latter moments after a rather awesome day. Hits you like a big yellow bus in tech savvy means, surprise surprise.
Maybe if I'd given fate a shot, I wouldnt be left feeling like this. But isnt fate the very path you take to avoid it? I should stop justifying myself. Even after all this while the way it gets to me, annoys me like hell. I'm sure you feel way worse, sorry. I dont regret but, theres just somthing else I cant seem to put my finger on. Maybe its better left that way.
I should go bathe. Good run with juang earlier!

"Its the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance,
Its the dream aftraid of waking that never takes a chance"

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"Today, my boyfriend gave me a poem saying "Roses are red, violets are blue, rubbish is dumped and so are you." FML"
I'm sure some else had a worse day than you! I feel so sorry for her ohmann stupid boy.

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♥ Thursday, September 10, 2009

10:56 PM

Why did the peanut feel alot of pain?
Because it was assulted (A salted)

The mutton's jokes are not funny today ohmann. My lappie's so slow today. It caught the joey disease haha. Opps, sorry joey. Ohoh, bf and I were talking abt GG and we got so terribly excited just now. I feel like watching it all over again right now. awesome blair and chuck. If I could be a fictional character, i'd be blair and bf will be claire and we'll rhyme haha.I think all my blood is rushing to my tummy cos I ate so much. Cant seem to think straight. Studied w kathykong, jer and bf at icon. We ate like whales omg yay maxwell porridge. Got productive only at the last hour from 8.30pm to 9.30pm. We're so lousy at shutting up and studying. Talked abt Ris low again haha. Visited juang and pufferfish in the morning to disturb them. Made juang jump in her seat HAHA.
Met Horny and varru at town yesterday. Good catch up time yay! Miss you guys already :D Shopped too woohoo. Oh i'm so happy for horny haha. Omg so exciting. Keep us updated ah! Visited kathykong thereafter. Meet eighthalie dear too!
Spent tuesday with mabel,joey and pufferfish! Impromtu plan. Eew i dont like shopping at ion. Too many floors haha. Nice conversations, as usual. (:

I kept thinking about the same things over the past few nights. Do you think you'd ever have to make really difficult decisions in the future which go against the very morals and pricipals which have guided you thusfar? There are bound to be a few of such scenarios right? Lie in court to save someone really dear? Do you think a mistress ever wanted to be a mistress? So was it her fault that she fell in love with a married man? Blame her heart? I think i was just very disturbed by how coco ended up as a mistress despite hating them and despite falling in love with him even before he was married. Circumstances sighs. You never know what the future beholds. oh the horror ):

Talking about the future ... 60 days to A levels. Haha i messed up the previous countdown. Sorry, i dont take maths. I'm going to school tmr ohmann. Applying for study leave tmr haha yay. So you think you're too cool for school huh. Dreading monday, as expected. Sleep inducing lessons gawd. Alright I should stop whining and do some work now. sad noise. Actually i feel like watching tv!! oh i watched SI, Americas got talet, moment of truth, bachelor, without a trace continuously till 2am today morning. The whale couldnt drag herself off the coach haha. Btw i think i'm the only idiot who cries while watchng americas got talet. Its so touching to see the ultimate joy and elation on the faces of the people who get a shot at living their dreams. Tugs at your heartstrings sighs.
Okay i must study mustard must! Trying to study is so tiring gosh. Hello friends go try and study alright jiayoujiayou (:
Happy Birthday Nailbalm! :D
Exco should meet soon. miss you!

"What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again."

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♥ Monday, September 07, 2009

12:20 AM

I feel like cutting my throat and nose out. HAHA yuck. Flu sorethroat! sad noise.
I havent done anythg productive in 4 awesome days woohoo. 60 days to A levels hooray. I've become so immune to counting down that I dont feel the slightest bit of worry haha. So dont count down okay!
Had tuition just now and the same annoyingassholic guy sat beside me. I was praying he wouldnt sighs. Thankgod the moment he sat down, I stood up and moved to the empty seat beside. He's damn sick and damn omg disgusting. He makes my hair stand. Even despite moving, he touched my hand while passing me the wksheet. Arghh (omg jer i forgot to tell you that part!) I wanted to stand up and scream okay. You wouldnt want to know what else he did. I'm never going for tuition on sunday again!! So upset. Okay i should stop talking about cos i'm starting to feel really worked up.
Met jeralyn after tuition and we went to cathay to visit kathykong. Then we headed to pomo for green tea matcha and then to wilkie starbucks. Studied for 10mins and talked for an hour plus. Had Rochor beancurd and butterfly thereafter. Yay. Miss you already dear! Had SAAP on saturday. Favouritestest people yay! Shan and I were such hypocrites cos, we ate popeye's fried chickens despite being anti KFC. Haha damnit cage. Bf'S not going to eat KFC anymore too yay! I like their biscuits and mash potatoes yummy. Anw, after that, the whole horrible plan they had began ): I had to wear the cedar trackpants (cos i lost the pink bands bet) and this huge "hug me" board thingy, and get 18 hugs from strangers. Omg right. Jiang you are so dead on your birthday, watch out man haha. Thankgod I didnt cry okay. HAHA. I had to say, "will you hug me, please?" It was so embarrassing and I just wanted to dig a hole and hide. Okay so I got 9 hugs from nice ladies cos, i refused to hug any guys yuck. Anw saap was nice and gave me the other 9 hugs. That was not all. I had to find for jiang and jesai w nice cage, kathykong and kellyFAN. They went to hide -_- Finally found them. And then, i had to find for my presents!! Haha, they are so cute srsly. I had 18 doughnuts as my cake. So sweet! Thankyou SAAP (: I dont think I would have done such an embarrassing thing for anyone else, really. And thankyou for the presents too. They gave me a really pretty fleece blanket so, they'll always be close to me. Aww so sweet. Many loves <3 Sleepover soon yay! Oh and thankyou for the pretty heartplaque choopsie. I put it next to the picture corkboard thingy that you gave me on my 16th birthday haha :D Takecare yanying! Hope you get well soon, miss you!
Had bio paper on friday. I was so busy trying to hide my black nails and remember my index number throughtout the entire paper. Awesome shizz. Was so distraught throughtout the entire paper. Okay whatever. At least, its over hooray. Caught coco before channel w juangjuang and milmil thereafter. The critics ought to be shot! We thought it was an awesome show. Go catch if you're interested, really. The only part that I didnt like was that the part that kept on smoking throughtout the entire show! She would have lived longer if she didnt smoke sighs. I must catch september issue and TTW! Anw had awesome thai express and tuition later.

"Swiss authorities have issued a death warrant for 3 offending wolves originating from Italy and France that violated Swiss law by killing more sheep than they should." This is so stupid seriously. Its not like they told the poor hungry wolves the quota to hunt. Poor wolves sighs!
I read this somewhere. People in the past had more loving and stable relationships with the people around them cos, they carefully put their thoughts together and wrote letters instead of rash smses and emails. "You can crush a million letters trying to write the perfect one but, one never does throw his phone away." Makes so much sense right! technology and its hazards. This week's Time mag talks about the decline of cursive handwriting and "what happens to your social networks and cyberspaces after you die". And I hope I never get kidnapped cos, i dont want to the police reading my big box of letters and going through all my private stuff! That would suck terribly. Kathleen, imagine the police reading those letters from you when we were in sec 2!! The extremely funny sgt pq ones HAHA.

I'm so excited to stay home tomorrow yay. And my mum made spaghetti for me! I still have 2 cakes and 8 doughnuts in my fridge. I cant decide if I should go for a morning jog or swim tmr. I've to do a essay by tmr morning though. I'll figure something out. Okay, goodnight friends!

"Maybe Romeo and Juliet were fated to be together, but just for a while, and then their time passed. If they could have known that beforehand, maybe it all would have been okay. I told Mrs. Snyder that when I was grown up, I'd take fate into my own hands. I wouldn't let some guy drag me down. Mrs. Snyder said that I'd be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone, and that if I did, we'd be together forever. Even now, I believe that for the most part, love is about choices. It's about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending...most of the time. And that sometimes, despite all your best choices and all your best intentions... fate wins anyway."

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♥ Thursday, September 03, 2009

11:49 PM

Despite not wanting to celebrate turning 18, I cut 4 cakes today. And none of them were planned. Aww, everyones so sweet today that sometimes I feel so awkward being surrounded by so much love haha. Like, I dont know how to express my thanks haha sorry dears. Thankyou everyone for all your manymany well wishes and calls. Thankyou MG for catching me by surprise at home while I was still in my pinkpyjamas, for the VERY thoughtful presents, for smashing my face with cream (Okay so yall finally got your revenge haha), awesome buffet and most importantly, for your presence and love. ♥ Thankyou peiting and wynn for catching me by surprise (yet again) just an hour ago. Caught up, bitched, looked at old pictures, rolled on my bed and laughed like shiat. 12 years and more ♥ & thankyou familyyy :D
Surprisingly, I really did enjoy turning 18 haha.
You forgot but, i dont care really. No i dont. yes i dont.
Birthdays come with way too much unspoken expectations.

Okay, I shall try studying for tmr's MCQ bio paper now sighs.

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♥ Tuesday, September 01, 2009

8:56 PM

I cant keep away from blogger for long. Lousy me. Anw, my mum came in a moment ago to whine. She was saying that my radio is too loud and blahh. I just ignored her. And then she said, "eh can you hear me?" then, i said, "No i've got selective hearing!" Then i started whining about my lost pens to her. And she just ignored me and started walking away so i said, "eh mummy can you hear me omg". Then she said, "No i've got selective hearing". HAHAH then we both laughed. So lame. Anw, the point of tt story was to say that all my new awesome uniball pens just grew legs and ran away. I'm so upset now cos, i've no black pens at home! Thats such a good excuse to not study tonight haha

Happy Teachers Day and happy 1st sept! Hope you heard the 12noon chime despite the pouring rain. I msged ms gp chew, ec chew and mrs chng to wish them today! My favourite teachers' names start with C, cool. HAHA Anw their replies were so sweet and nice. I think gp chew is the utimate role model for teachers. She plans to set up some kind of voluntary social svc in the future. How cool is that. Mrs chng's a really good friend whom i'll be mtg tmr evening, during tuition -_- Oh i forgot to msg my favouritestest teacher today; my mum. Okay, i shall wish her after this.
Met cage at nlb today. Oh before that I shared my umbrella w an old lady and helped her get to intercont hotel. She was really cute and kept saying, "Bless me bless me, oh i mean, bless you bless you dear". So cute omg. Anw, we ended up studying at berrylite and had fun w the really short lamp post thr haha. Thankyou for the card cage! So sweet. Bird loves you (: Btw, cathay was like filled w cedarians yesterday. I miss wearing cedar uniform. They looked so happy prancing ard in it. Meet syl, the over achiever too haha. And I collected my new specs last night. I look like Fay the frog srsly.

I feel like eating chubby hubby and cookie dough from B&J. Oh saap, lets go for chunkfest the following sat! (:
Anw i hope my neighbour fries dumplings tonight and pops by house to give me some soon hehe. I'm so hungry now cos, my mum only made fruit salad tonight. It was really good and I had three bowls though hah. Bf says that i'm going to spend half the day tmr in the toilet cos apparently eating lots of fruits tgt is a way to detox the body. (detox=diarrhoea) West coast plaza better have clean toilets HAHA okay this is so gross.
I like the current weather. I think it keeps you really clean and happy haha. okay goodbye, i shall go steal my sister's pens now.

"Heaven, hell, limbo, no one really knows where we’re going or what’s waiting for us when we get there. But the one thing we can say for sure, with absolute certainty, that’s there are moments that take us to another place, moments of heaven on earth. And maybe for now, that’s all we need to know."

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♥ Sunday, August 30, 2009

11:34 PM

"Many people don't know that the human eye has a blind spot in its field of vision. There is a part of the world that we are literally blind to. The problem is, sometimes our blind spots shield us from things that really shouldn't be ignored. Sometimes our blind spots keep our lives bright and shiny. When it comes to our blind spots, maybe our brains aren't compensating. Maybe they're protecting us."

Sometimes, we tend to forget how brittle relationsips are and how everything can be oh so easily replaced. Ex best friend, ex boyfriend, ex husband ... We tend to fool ourselves and entrust our lives with people whom we trust to safeguard it rain or shine. People whom we trust to be a constant in our lives. But people being people, are full of surprises and just when you think you know someone inside out, surprisesurprise. Its so hard to believe that everyone has their fair share of hidden skeletons in their closet; so damn hard. And when these people walk out of our lives, we helplessly watch it crumble and fade. Never rely on someone else to live. Never rely on someone else to constantly be there to save you. Never forget that you're the only constant in your life and you're your own hero; saviour; wonderwall. (: We all need these timely reminders.

I risked being fined today by carrying a huge durian cake on the mrt haha omg. Must catch coco before channel, time travellers wife and up real soon! I've still yet to watch requiem for a dream and virgin suicides ugh. Gossipgirl is back hooray 90210 season2 too! Oh the horror of such distractons. No, i shall be a strong disciplined young lady and carry out my 10week-slow&steady-mugging-programme as of tmr! I mustwillshallcan do it and prevent cramming at my favourite 11th hour yay. Okay, this is quite exciting haha. I really dont think its too late yet. If you havent already started, just start tmr okay. 70 days to A's. Jiayoujiayou! (: We'll all survive.
I want to be able to shop/work/learn ballet/read/volunteer/travel in peace, knowing that I didnt screw up the slip termed as my 'future'(whether i believe its really my future, is another story altogether).
Oh tmr shall also be the start of the stop-looking-like-a-cow-and-lose-some-weight programme. Aye but eating healthy is so expensive you know. Apple chips and salads are so pricey. Le sighs. I shall think of skinny bf and, tiffy&jer who are counting calories too, to keep me motivated. Doesnt misery love company? Haha.
Meeting kathykong at cathay tmr. Cage, xy and jer are dropping by too. (:

Oh drink a huge glass of luke warm water every morning to detoxify your body and achieve good complextion. It really works yay. Alrighty, happy september everyone. Favourite mth of the year haha. I just hope 4th sept comes after 2nd sept and i get to miss my bday cos, i'm dreading it like crazyyyy. Whatever happened to being seventeen forever ): I dont want to be legal i dont want to grow up. Sad noise. Ohwell, all the best to those taking their prelims in the coming weeks! You'll survive just like I did haha! Poor bf has phy geog paper tmr. Cage, go study okay! (: Goodnight, i shall eat some really healthy&yummy yogurt now!
I dont think i'd be blogging for awhile so, dont waste your time checking this space okay. :D

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1:35 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-JdfPl_TYHo (part one)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CeMAGETY2hs (part two)

If you're bored and have nothing better do (like me), consider watching royston tan's short film on spore censorship(above)! Pretty entertaining with a clear message. Btw, its was ironically filmed at the carpark of The Esplanade.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vj32MEkq00c
Sabel Soh, this is for you HAHAH. Something in your favourite language.

Okay, i've ten minutes to blog. I hope it stops raining by the time I leave home. Oh oh its raining cos the moon goodess and shepherd who only get to meet once a year, just met last thursday and are really upset to part! ): Ask mildred for more info! Haha, we spent 4hrs talking about the seventh month. Oh, prelims are almost over. except for human geog and bio mcq papers. Kinda survived, i guess. Fell sick last thursday and got a 22dollar MC. Ouch. Had dinner at holland with a third of A02 on thurs! Spent friday with awesome Icons! Met my mum for dinner in the evening! The lady beside us thought we were collegues and she asked me if I was eurasian. Yeah totally haha. Made new specs HAHA. Shopped. Had an enlightening spore lecture yesterday morning. Met jer, xy and tiffy at the awesome cow's stomach again! H2H with jer again! Yay, awesome company for the past few days. Oh and my mum made chicken pie and almond jelly especially for me. Aww. :D
Okay, heres all the awful bits. My phone's jammed. Spoilt whatever. Sighs. Cabbed home from rochor last night. Never get into a cab when the cabdriver calls you "a beautiful young lady". Pukes. He stopped at every single traffic light and a journey which wld usually cost me 5bucks at most, cost me a painful 11bucks. Sighs. Omg so much more but its okay. I shall just forget about it haha.

Okay gtg before i'm late for the millionth time. Goodbye friends. I think i'll blog again tonight. (:

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♥ Sunday, August 23, 2009

8:10 PM

Happy Birthday Juangggg! (:
Its so strange how we had oh so many opportunities to get to know each other well last year but didnt till recently. But better now then never right! Yay, lets swim again soon and take stupid deformed pictures in the water w mil. And btw we have yet to reach our 5k a day goal. Haha. Flyer&icecreambuffetyay!!

Vicky is so pleased with her self made green tea milk that she doesnt feel like studying anymore. Its so delicious omg. It taste like starbuck's GT frappe w/o ice. I think i'm going to get a stomach upset from it later cos I mixed strange things tgt. ohmann
I've been having strange dreams again. Last night it was abt my mum dragging me to the sydney opera hse to watch MICE sing!! I was so disgusted that I almost puked and the blue light lit washrooms were so gross. On Friday night it was about mtg broom while she was having a candlelight dinner at COLDSTORAGE with her TJ friends. Then somehow jer and benjamin came into the picture. I need to read up on dreams soon.
Oh I cut a few dresses yesterday cos I realise that I dont like them and will never wear them, anymore. What a waste of money right sighs. Anw, I made good use of the cloth all round the house and one of it is used to cover my lappie Haha. Shd have sold it at some flea. Went for SMU flea w yanying on sat. We cldnt find what we were looking for (HSM song haha). It was so crowded faints. Miss you tyy! (: Rushed to my gp's hse for extended family portrait taking. It was pretty strange and abrupt. Good food though!
Jiayou Kathykong and jer. Some people; cant live with them, cant live without them. SAAP lubbxx euux many. (:
Okay, thou has to return to lonely king lear. ):
Four more days to go. Hooray. Ren. Jiayou everybody.

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♥ Thursday, August 20, 2009

11:12 PM

Mary said that, Mother Teresa once said : "We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls." Mary is so true.

Today was a pretty awesome day. (: I dont know why. Mabel and I were so so close to being late for the ec paper though.(I warned her rgd my punctuality way in advance btw HAHA) I should just be a shareholder of comfort taxis, srsly. I think I love being home alone to the extent that I've just no heart to leave it. Met J and Bf at awesome rochor in the evening. Its like my favourite mystery place cos I always seem to be able to find my way there and find my way to some far away busstop by walking aimlessly. We tried studying in an awesome cow's stomach, had awesome rochor tauhuey and other awesome food. Oh and some awesome story sharing sessions too. Yay, i love my awesome friends. Anw, so it started raining when I got on the bus and daughtry started singing. So peaceful yay. I like bus rides on rainy nights. Oh and just when I was thinking abt how i'm going to reach home all drenched, my awesome mum called and insisted on waiting at the busstop for me. Aww so sweet right. Cant rmb the last time I was fetched home with an umbrella! Yay, i like today. So blessed, so perfect. Its 'swim and study' day with pufferfish and juang tmr, hooray! I cant decide on whether I shd pon tuition tmr sighs. Reading fml.com always cracks me up but, its so cruel to find joy in others sorrows sighs. Ohwell I shall go get some supper and read great expectations. Talking to Bf has made me so determined to finally read it! Goodbye friends.

"You never know the biggest day of your life is your biggest day, not until it’s happening. You don’t recognize the biggest day of your life, not until you’re right in the middle of it. The day you commit to something or someone. The day you get your heart broken. The day you meet your soul mate. The day you realize there’s not enough time because you wanna live forever. Those are the biggest days. The perfect days. You just know, it was a beautiful day."

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♥ Monday, August 17, 2009

11:55 PM

I just went to war with a cockroach which flew in from my window, for the past hr. Trojan war part two. Was talking to kathleen over the phone and just when we ended our convo, I turned and saw a freaking huge cockroach (the kind with winx wings and legs like models) on my couch. Anything but cockroaches and lizards. sighs. The last time I killed one was in sec4 using a really thick magazine. Its contents spilled all over omg. Okay back. Sprayed baygon all over my room. And its legs dropped off while I was trying to sweep it away. Its long. hairy. legs. freaking. dropped. off. Desite having just two legs, it was still alive and kicking. whyohwhy are you so strong. I felt a little sorry for it but, hate and disgust overwhelmed any form of pity. Aye and I had to clean up the mess in my room. Stupid small thing ): Wheres mummy when I need her! tsk. I can still feel its presence. Faints. I feel so sorry for whoever who just wasted their time reading this.
And i'm never going to eat big fat black pepper sausages for dinner again. Yuck I feel like I just swallowed a cow and its still stuck in my oesophagus. poor cow poor me ):
What a strangestrange day. oh, and yay one paper down. The stupid fan was trying to blow all my papers away grr. And I was amused thinking about what a sight it would if be all my nine loose sheets flew away half way during the paper. Haha. I shall bore myself with econs now since fb isnt loading. (I forsee myself falling asleep in 10mins) Goodnight!

"You know when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be – white dress, prince charming who’d carry you away to a castle on a hill. You’d lie in your bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the tooth fairy, prince charming –they were so close you could taste them. But eventually you grow up and one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope and faith that one day they would open their eyes and it would all come true."

"At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important, happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away."

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♥ Sunday, August 16, 2009

11:32 AM

Blogger is so screwed. I must migrate to wp soon. sighs

I cant find the right words to tell you 'I told you so'; the right words to say 'I told me so'.
I've been having strange dreams lately. I was involved in some murder in one while, I forgot my own birthday in another. The latter was pretty hilarious. I was starring at my phone and saw that it was 4th sept while, doing my bio mcq paper, and screamed. So drama, Ha. I keep missing 11:11 ): So unlucky sighs. Dear God, please give me the strength to survive the coming weeks of papers and the perserverance to not give up half way. I'm terriblyterribly unprepared but, just let me survive it, prettyplease. Please dont let my books eat me up. ): They look like really pissed at me for not touching them. I'm such an ill disciplined disappoinment.
The next time I blog, I'd better have some positive news rgd my education, if not, i ought to visit the railmall tracks. Okay kidding. I dont have the courage please.

I want to play the overhead bridge game again soon! Cheap thrills ftw. (: Anw I caught ms tie smiling to herself at town ystrday HAHA. Okay i'm determined to get study leave and keep away from school at all costs. Hooray.
Somehow i feel like i'm wasting my life away right now. Like theres another plan for me which i'm itching to fulfil but, i dont know what. I get a feeling I wont end up doing familylaw or psychology. I'll do sthg which i'd never thought i'd end up doing. Isnt life always like that? Sometimes I reallyreally wish a rich prince in shining armour will sweep me off my feet and we'd do lots of social work tgt, save the poor & sick w his fortunes, adopt lots of kids and live happily ever after in Africa or sthg.
Okay, stop thinking so much. Monsoons and mkt structures call. ):

/But with you theres no guarantee
only expired warranty

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♥ Thursday, August 06, 2009

10:34 PM

12:34:56 7/8/9
I think its really sad that the world could look forward to this time, tmr, for a reallyreally long while, to just see it flash before their eyes in a second, literally. Dont you think numbers look really mysterious sometimes? They are so easily manipulated, its scary. Just 9 digits can form an entire subject. Ohmy. Okay i just reminded myself why I dont take maths anymore.

No school till 17th! Heavenly. My ezlink card needs a hiatus from living at the GO.
If only I had the discipline to do a lifestyle fast like maryyy. ):
Why do I get the feeling that i'll be as unprepared for prelims as I was for cts? And history will just repeat itself for As. woohoo
I need to start studying seriously for prelims. My mum will be hysterical if she sees anythg below a C. I need to stop day dreaming and pretending to study.
I need to do so many things, my goodness. I need to sleep, eat, diet, shop, exercise blah. Ohmy, conflicting objectives. sighs. HAHAH, what a sad life omg.
starbucks friday! SAAP national day saturday!(: Family gathering.Town sunday.Happy Nationl Day. Fireworks. Happy belated varru! Happy early bday broom!
Aye, I feel really bored and tired todayyyyy. oh but at the same time, thankful that I survived these past few days.
I thank god for giving me constant reminders across this week that blood will always be thicker than water and that I should never rely too much on someone. Such timely reminders, they were. Though some of these reminders were sent in hurtful ways which left me in an embarrasing mess of tears, I'd rather this happen sooner than later. And I was also reminded on how sometimes I overreact so unnecessarily and how having such unrealistic expectations of others kills. What a happening week, indeed!

Actually i dont really feel like blogging anymore. Haha. The muttons are really funny today!
I shall have my raspberry cheese cake and strawberry milk for supper now! yay yay.

"The little boy I watched throwing pebbles into the empty fountain [...] You could tell that he had too much wisdom for his age. Probably he believed that he wasn't made for this world. I wanted to say to him: If not you, who?"

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♥ Tuesday, August 04, 2009

10:12 PM

Today was such a bad morning that it ought to go down in history. ): And what makes me most upset is not having the pink band anymore. I'm sorry saap ): Anw. Woke up really late and contemplated not going to school for really long. (watched desp houswives n stepford wives last night btw. I'm taking As next year, trust me.Hah) Anw, ms chew told eve she'd come today so, i glumly decided to drag myself towards the other end of spore. And not surprisingly, i was late for the 4th time. My awesome ezlink card was confiscated. I bet the councillor was masking his grin when he glanced at my ezlink photo. Damnit. Had to meet vp at conference room. Met P on the way there. He scolded me for folding my sleeves and for the pink band. Omg pink band ): I felt like crying while taking out the pink band HAHA seriously okay. I think what jiang said was really true. Though we all kept complaining abt it, it always reminded us of each other. And it kinda grew on me already. Aye ): Anw, so vp lectured for awhile and thankgod he let me off. Went for econs and realised that ms chew wasnt there. So there was really no point in going to school. UGH. ponned the following two redundant lessons. Jogged with joey! Oh and our bitchy civics tutor made a horribly bitchy comment yet again. Tomorrow shall be confrontation day! So you think you can say as you please and get away with it? You can hate our guts for all I care cos, we've all pretty much lost any bit of respect we ever had for you. Such a disappoinment! Sighs. Socially irrespondsible ppl ought to be shot. Yesterday, there were three really stupid sec sch boys who playfully spilled sugar all over their tables and chairs at macs and shifted over to a new seat. And they kept laughing about it really loudly and using the F word [I dont understand why people can use such a crude word so happily. Its a different matter altogether when people say it to express anger].If thats you idea of fun, I feel really sorry for you! The poor cleaner had to clear up after them!! I just kept glaring at them and one of the guy said, 'see what see' in chinese. And I stared so hard that I thought my eyes were gonna pop out and said, "I think yall ought to clear up this place!" And they were speechless. And I really hope zhou will be as speechless tmr. Actions have consequences. You can choose your actions but you cannot choose your conequences. sighs. Ohwell, but the day did get better :D

Its photo taking day tmr. Photo taking was such an exciting event in Cedar. HAHA. Our informal photo was dabomb last year! It'll be so weird not being at the foyer facing the super blinding flash tmr. All those council, cca, class, oac ldrs phototakings, where we had to rush and change! Oh the chaos. Haha.
Dear god, please let tmr be a better day. (: oh cage just helped me buy a topshop voucher from ebay. Haha, yay shan. Btw, puffer fish keeps rendering me speechless day after day, moment after moment. And I know that misery loves company and you just love to force me to come to school right!! HAHA (:

I MISS MY PINK BAND!

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♥ Saturday, August 01, 2009

11:26 AM

Sometimes when you make the same old wishes at 11:11 and you open your eyes to see that its already 11:12, do you feel the slightest bit of worry and regret, hoping you hadnt been so naggy and more straight to the point? Greed in its infinite manifestations.

Yay, its the 1st of august; chime at noon time (:
Godma's surprise bday party later. St james flea tmr. I miss saap. School's such a waste of time. A02 is an awesome class! Juang and I had three tau sar piahs yesterday and one everyday, for the past week. Yay three cheers for sweet nothings and a whole of calories. I wish I was in hogwarts with harry. At least, i would have saved Dumbledore. And i can be hagrid's bestf and play with his drangons. Oh and i'll have so much of dessert to eat! Btw, we smuggled a whole roast chicken into the theatre! Hah. two weeks to prelims. I wish I could borrow harry's time turner. Anw, pufferfish said sthg really funny on her blog. "She forced me to stare at the star-less sky and say, yes, i see stars!" HAHA, omg she makes me sound like an idiot. But reallyreally, the harder you stare into the dark sky, the more stars you see. Nobody wants to believe me. ): I'm going to prove my point someday yay!

I believe that god is fair, really. But sometimes, i cant help but doubt my belief. I know its wrong but I cant help it. Seeing the hurt that goes around, love seems so unfair. I hate how love makes people so self sacrificial, how it makes one put their own pride down. I hate how one can end up so hurt in it. I hate to see it bring people down and destroy them esp, when they are my friends. I think its so unfair how loving deeply can bring with it so much hurt. Its so so unfair. Wheres all the joy and peace its suppossed to bring? If you love someone, you'll never feel angry at them, you'll feel disappointed. You wont hurl insults and cry red hot tears of angst, you're heart will cringe, ache and tear. But sometimes, these theories dont stand. Cos reality and simplistic ideals always seem worlds apart. People are complicated and so is love. I guess? Everything happens for a reason, perhaps. Yes, j&I are going to be psychologist and figure them all out. (:

Wait, mb i'll decide to migrate to newzealand when i'm 25 and be a farmer! Yay, then i can grow and eat kiwis & grapes all day. But even then, i'll have to watch out for the pests, eco control, diseases, seasons, irrigation, floods, droughts, demand, supply, mkt control etc. Oh sighs. Nvm i'll think of sthg. okay goodbye! I love saturday mornings.

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♥ Monday, July 27, 2009

12:15 AM

"Vicky,
It will be even more difficult to concentrate today because you'll be far more interested in playing or daydreaming than working or getting the family chores finished. Take the family out for a movie, it is a good day to enjoy a great flick or get out to a park."

HAHA, even my fb horoscope is in cahoots with my plan to pon tmr. But sadly, the above description kinda applys to everyday of my life. At least, i'd save some moolah by not cabbing from lakeside since, its become my latest hobby. Seriously D:
Anw, i've a confession. I read through 5 pgs of notes over the weekend. So much for resigning to fate and deciding to conform. Ugh. But gawddd, everythg's so boring and I dont know why but I keep having this impression that its all ohsoeasylemonsqueezy and repetitive. Okay, i need to stop whining and justdoit really quickly and get it done and over with. Afterall, its the results that are going to freaking matter and noones gonna make excuse for you by saying, 'oh its okay cos, you didnt study'. People will just say that your stupid for not studying. So much for striving towards your dreams and living each day like its your last. If I die today, i guess, i'll actually be pretty much happy with the life I've lived thus far. At least, i didnt waste it away doing redundant crap which I'm bound to forget the moment a voice says, "pens down". I need to stop justifying myself!

I'm still listening to Walking on broken glass but, I dont feel the slightest bit happy. It just reminds me of ballet and how much i'd love to be somewhere else, living the life of a ballerina. Or just performing somewhere. Last year, this time, we were preparing for NewZealand trip which was in a weeks time. Aint the grass always greener on the other side? Anw, the word Happy is so overrated. So, is the word Upset/Sad. Why isnt the word Neutral overrated? Why do we always tend/assume to swing to such extremes? Whats with my critical attitude seriously? Haha.

On a lighter note, just a few minutes ago, the new national day theme song was aired on the radio w/o any introduction blah. My sis said, "eh, who's this song by?" And I said, "huh sounds like coldplay." HAHAHA, what an insult to coldplay srsly. I ought to be shot. Stupid school's ruining my mood. ughh. So much so that I almost forgot about the awesome late aft/evening at clarkequay. Ohwell, thou shall get a grip of thyself soon and conform to the harsh reality that lays before thy. It cant be that bad, right? Afterall, freedom lies in one's state of mind and beauty in one's perceptions.

The sun's still shining in the big blue sky
But it don't mean nothing to me
Oh let the rain come down
Let the wind blow through me
I'm living in an empty room
With all the windows smashed
And I've got so little left to lose
That it feels just like I'm walking on broken glass

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♥ Sunday, July 26, 2009

11:11 AM

Make-a-wish time! (:
Haha, sadly this aint no coincidence.

Anw, yesterday I felt like I was living in a durian shell and today I feel like i'm in patrick's pineapple house! Eee why do the fruits at home have such strong smells omg! okay, i'm starting to smell chicken rice. Yay, mummy's once-a-week homemade meal! woo. I'm surprised to be awake so early. Listening to walking on broken glass can make you feel really happy in the morning. :D Haha. Flea yesterday was alright. Sometimes when I buy things I dont even know if I really like it or am I just buying it for the sake of spending money. Sighhs. Ate into next week's allowance again. HAHA, splurge on weekends and stinch on weekdays yo. Anw, I finally saw for myself yesterday, how I constantly need people to reassure me to make me feel good about myself. Omg thats so sad and horrible right. okay, but I dont really want to feel good about myself, so whatever la. HAHA. Alright, summary-of-week time.

Oh wait, I see pretty Ariel on tv! under the seaaa!:D Okay, lets make this a quickie. Went to Holland to eat cold rock. But, ended up eating 3 plates of zee best oyster omeletes, chicken wings, cheesecake and frolickkk. Puffer fish kept saying that 'god will punish me' for playing with my food and saying horrible jokes etc but, strangely it was her who almost tripped twice on the way home and walked into a pole!Haha. It was such a happy MG monday! (:
Met Jer at cathay. Yay, my favourite tuesday buddy. Had my weekly green tea frappe staple. Oh we met two really weird&gross guys. wlao, they asked if we wanted to hang out with them. More like hang them please. Anw, we talked&talked&talked abt future, school, life etc(futurelovesex HAHA) till late. Yay, nice conversations keep me going. <3 TAAP next tuesday with xy and cage too! Omg wait, I hope there isnt econs lec, shit. Wednesday was rush home and sleep day HAHA. Studied in school till late on thursday. Juang's dad gave mil and I a lift home. So nice, hee. Survived lit after school on fri with lots of nuggets. Haha. Puffer fish came over to my house thereafter and we went to pop by Rama Thai to surprise Juang! Haha. Then, mil and I had a nice evening walk to maxwell while looking at wedding gowns. (: Yay I had the best maxwell porridge in the WWW and she had some wanton thingy with really yummy soup. And we had a really nice mango sago dessert that came in a ICE BOWL. Coolios (haha). Watched sunset while eating. Walked home. Played hide and seek (HAHA?!), named my soft toys, showed her my primary school pictures (HAHAH), taught her how to see stars, watched 'fireworks' and ate ice cream. YAY (: Met yanying, shan, xy and jer at flea on sat. No saap though ): Hello pink bands people, being such determined cedarians, obviously noone's going to lose. So, lets just take it out soon okay!! Haha (:

Alright, I should go start some work after watching The little mermaid! (: Yay. Kathleen's not going for tuition laterzzz boo ): Oh but jer is (: and it'll be so weird seeing woonshit on a sunday. Its weird seeing weekday people on weekends. Haha. Ohoh, i had a really long and nice chat with my mum last night. We talked abt clubbing, clothes, her past, her friends, her love life etc. And she said, that its alright if I dont do well for A's, but she just wants me to know that I tried my best. So sweet right. And I dont think I want to do family law anymore, I shall be a psychologist and figure out the strange human mind. And i get to study overseas too. Yay. Alright, jiayou everybody. :D

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♥ Sunday, July 19, 2009

2:48 AM

Happy Birthday Yanying! ♥

Awesome SAAP full attendance. Ballet Under The Stars. Yummy Picnic. Pink bands bet. Cathay SB once again. Stupid forfeits and pledging video. HAHA. Yay, they made my week. I really hate the itchy pink band omg. But, no, i wont take it off first cos, i'm not going to wear Cedar trackpants to flea next sat!! HAHA, omg i really dont know whose going to lose first. I secretly hope its kathleen cos, I'd love to see her sing 'peeping through the window' in a yellow wig. HAHA, i'm sorry kathykong. HAHA. Anw, I think ballerinas are the prettiest people in the WWW. So talented, flexible, graceful, slender, slim, beautiful haiii. Yanying and I cant wait to learn ballet after As (!!(:) but, honestly, i think i'm too fat and ugly to learn ballet. sighs. Ohwell, hope the teacher wont give up on me. Haha ):

Ohoh, i'm addicted to strawberries and grapes. woohoo. And guess what guess what! My cousin bought me a weeks supply of B&J cookie dough ice cream. Omg, ultimate favourite. yay, cookie dough ftw. (:

Okay, tired ttm. Goodnight blog. Maybe I should lock you up soon. Hmm. I'm looking forward to next sat already. hateschooolzz91@hotmail.com ): ugh. Okay, i'm going to find a day to pon, next week. Hee. alrighty goodnight friendzxzx.

YAY, PINK BANDS PEOPLE FTW ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVEEEE! :D

/You were the sweetest thing that I ever knew
But I dont care for sugar honey if I cant have you

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♥ Saturday, July 18, 2009

12:11 AM

Its the thought of the exciting weekend that pulled me through this grossly tiring week. (:

Literally ran away from Ecs lect on tues to meet jer at Cathay SB! :D Met kathleen and tiffany there too. Cedar moment yet again. Hah. Then we planned some stuff at a magical table under the powers of some magical power with inefficient jiang HAHA. Studied, had a really really simple, diet friendly, dinner and, a nice hearttohearttalk. I love our hth :D We must eat sunshinemango, greentea matcha and durian pancake next week okay!! Yay.
Wednesday was stay home and sleep day. Fever & headache due to lack of sleep. I diagnosed that myself btw HAHA
Met bestfriend at Cathay SB on Thurday! Saw jer there too yay. (: We talked for almost three hours, non stop and pretty much abandoned our study plans. "It's really nice to have someone who has the patience and the willingness to listen, no matter how much I have to say. Someone who understands things from different points of view, someone whom I can chat with for such a long time without short awkward spaces for silence to fill, someone whom I can talk to about anything everything that comes straight from my heart without having to think, because I know she won't judge. And because she won't judge, it makes me feel so comfortable, so much better about myself. And she is the only one that can literally complete my sentences whenever I pause at a loss of words. Haha it's so hard to find someone like that right? Yay five years and counting! (: "
Yeah its so hard to find someone like that right? I'm so glad I found you, kathleenkingkongyuting (:
& I embarrassed myself countless times in public that day. So much so that i'm immune to it, haha.
Tuition today was draining ttm. Went to town with mildred, joey, jam and juang thereafter. Mini Retail Theraphy, hah. Met kathykong again (: Oh we had really nice peach potato salad! Haha and I had cravings for fried food which is highly rare. She said, 'Lucky we're not in the same school, if not, you'll make me really fat!" HAHA, ironically i dont really eat much in school nowadays. And i'd give anythg to be the same school, really! Sighs. Anw, yay i'm so glad for the way things turned out eventually today! TGIF woohoo.
And ta-da weekends.
Happy Birthday Yanying dear! Its going to be such an exciting SAAP day (:

Just wait and see! Hee. Btw, its the 6th bday we're celebrating tgt!!

/Give me more loving than I’ve ever had
Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad
Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not

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♥ Saturday, July 11, 2009

12:29 AM

I left my file in the canteen today. (Thanks jam [:) Left my phone on top of someone else's bag in the library. Left my Ez link card at the GO. (Thanks Juang [: ) I was late for school by like a few seconds?! Almost lost my wallet on my way home. I'm so out of sorts and tired today. And i'm really lucky that whoever who found my phone gave it to the librarian and, i'm really lucky that she called mabel. Actually, the funniest part of all of this, is that after each incident everything felt pretty surreal and i was indifferent. Maybe its cos, I found these things before I even realised they were lost. Blurrr omg.
Anw, Humans trying to play God is really disturbing. Joey and I were engrossed in the topic of God and tech today. Come to think of it, maybe flying was considered ethically wrong in the past too. Maybe the wright brothers were condemned for trying to play God, cos if God did intend for us to fly, he would have given us wings. But, God did create the wright brothers to invent the planes. And then, we just confused ourselves and kind of gave up running in circles.
Mabs, Jam, juang and I talked about New zealand and drama fest over an early dinner today. (:
Anw, i'm going to be vegetarian for a week, next week. Since I'm already avoiding Macs, KFC and fried chickens, i might as well give vegetarianism a shot & save some poor chickens and cows. :D

"Today I watched a robin in our front yard. I thought by now that they should have gone, with winter 'round the corner, snow on its way. Surely something must be wrong. Then in that old oak tree I finally saw her, where she sat gazing down upon her mate. And the song that she was singing seemed to say, "I'll be here. I'd like to go, but your love's made me stay." He's got a broken wing, and thats why he cant fly. She cant leave him there, so she stays by his side. Oh you should have heard her sing. They wont give up. It's just a broken wing." -Leann Rimes

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♥ Thursday, July 09, 2009

1:43 AM

The deafening silence and the constant clicking of your pen is strangely comforting at late, thought filled nights. Oh and so is the habitual midnight ice cream binge-ing. Woohoo. Flavour of the week is Caramel Macademia. Favourite.
I've still got another gp essay to write on the nature of self absorbed young sporeans. Oh how thrilling. My nose feels like its going to drop and so does my head. Reminds me of the musician who had the fear of his head dropping. Ahh, flusuckxzxttm@hotmail.com. ): I'm like a walking viral plague with a dettol hand sanitizer.

Sometimes we have really high expectations for ourselves. Expectations of yourself and others especially, where virtues are concerned. Expectations which complicate and burn you out while trying too hard to come close to. And you tend to doubt them all when differing sets are introduced. I'm a really lazy person who doesnt fancy trying too hard and complicated situations. So there I go, once again, trying to run away from them as fast as I can. Not good.
And, I dont understand whats with the complication. I'm not interested in having one of those online relationships where you cant talk face to face. Thats so scary!! Friends say Hi, not run and hide. Theres nothing to run and hide from right? Omg, queer and funnyyy yo. Alright, i'm going to kiss my essay goodbye and go to bed. Yay, may it be a terrific thursday for everyone, esp yanying and kathleen. (:
May my thermometer magically appear on my table tmr morning! Icantfindit ugh!

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♥ Tuesday, July 07, 2009

11:59 PM

Each day's a gift, not a given right

So live like you'll never live it twice
Leave no stones unturned, leave your fears behind

And try to take the path less travelled by

That first step you take is the longest stride

If theres something I learnt today,

its that hurting someone no matter how valid the reason, makes you feel horrible ):

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♥ Monday, July 06, 2009

1:03 AM

Happy youth day :D
Happy Exco day!!

I had such a funny dream last night! Cater, i hope you read this. I dreamt that ms poon, kathleen and the other OALs were on news. And it was about ms poon showing off this new invention of hers; a static rope which could change colour to match people's favourite colour, to enable them to climb the rockwall better. Kathleen was belaying and her face had the 'whattheshit is this' face and all the others oals had the 'I want to kill poon' face (like the one we all had when she freaking pissed us off on day one of camp!). HAHAHA, omg. It was damn funny, seriously! I woke up almost laughing and spent awhile thinking about LTC, OAC, Belay school, QM, rockwall, LAC, campcraft, smellymelly helmets and cedar. I keep having strange dreams haha.

Yesterday was such a lovely day spent with exceptionally lovely people. Haha. Kathleen was being such a pig in the morning. Right kathykong? Haha. Anw, we braved the rain at town using her britishindia cardigan meant for adventures woo! It was damn embarrassing omg. Everyone was like looking at us weirdly and my hair was all over my face and, we just looked like idiots. HAHA, as usual ugh. Met horny after a million years! (: Yay, it was so much fun. Felt like the good ole times yo. I made up a 'He damn jerk' song HAHA. Horny said, "is my ass bleeding?" Omg shahini why are you funnyyyy. Kathleen and I almost rolled on the floor laughing. &kathykong is the shopping queen who spent 1000 this month on shopping. She wins us all hands down. Haha. Anw, shopping was so thrilling. Omg the adrenaline rush woah. Thankgod horny was there cos, everytime I say "omg should I buy?" kathleen will say, "yahyah just get it!!" and vice versa. HAHA. We bought really pretty things woohoo. Yay, today was so much fun & I love them manymanymany.

I did the strangest thing for bf HAHA and she's like so pleased with it. Ending of GG was so perfect cos, the two bestestcoolestprettiesthandsomest people on the www got tgt. Aww so sweet. Omg melts. Blair and chuck sighsss so sweet. Okay back to reality. I'm having gastric again freak. ): Okay i think i need to go and do sthg about it soon.
Oh, guess what i had at 4am yesterday in bed! A huge bowl of banana split ice cream. HAHA, and then i fell asleep. The perfect way to get f.a.t and have sweet dreams. We were talking abt aneroxic people today and guess what, despite all the downsides, ill effects blah, i really look up to them for having so much of discipline. People can lose ten kg and I cant even lose 1kg. If only I was aneroxic or bulimic or sthg. Ugh. Haha okay shit, i bet people reading this will think i'm damn weird or sthg. Aye whatever. Touchpicnic laterzzz and ... !! :D
Goodnight.

/I see the sparkle of a million flashlights

A wonderwall of stars

But the one that's shining out so bright

Is the one right where you are

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♥ Sunday, July 05, 2009

12:31 AM

Love.

Every Saturday evening, feels like being sweet sixteen all over again. (:

Anw, please go eat claypot rice at chinatown. Its damn good, seriously. I had two bowls. With kueh pie tee, popiah and sugar cane juice. Anddd the fabulous desserts with the fabulous names (HAHA, kuchie kiwi, sunshine mango etc) at POMO are damn nice too. Nice food are to die for, literally. I'll just get fat and die but, its okayyyy HAHA

I'm excited for tmr. Hoorayyy. And i've nthg else to say. Oh except that I hope tuesday never comes and, that I've got gp homework and DOM to read. Spoilers. ): But its okay cos, watching gossipgirl makes it all okay. HAHA, i'm going to marry blair and xinying can have chuck. But, we MUST shareshare okay :D

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♥ Friday, July 03, 2009

9:25 PM

Yayyy, i'm so happy that I cant even get to sleep despite the extreme lack of sleep. Firefighting before every paper is extremely lethal. Omg. And tada its o.v.e.r. &, i feel really blessed that i managed to survive all the papers, really. Thankgod for some lack of courage and discipline which dragged me to school for the papers. Haha. Btwww, cabs are like vacuum cleaners. They suck all your money ): I need to curb my 'cabbing from lakeside' habit. I'm always so punctual for exams. SO punctual. Haha. ohoh, I made two friends on the mrt by giving up my seat to them. Old people can be so grateful sometimes. And I made friends with taxi drivers too. HAHA.

Anwwww, lunch with juang and juanita after bio paper today was so stress relieving. Met pufferfish, mabs and chewy at Island cremery soon after. Yay, teh tarik ice cream and the awesome company. (: Anw i'm so excited that the construction at the other end of the canteen is over and we can go back to our nice old early-months-of-J1 lunch tables by the carpark! Exciting days await. Haha. Shopping at ikea and balastier, meet yanying + SAAP in the evening! Shopping with kathykongy on sunday. family dinner. Touch picnic on monday and youth day date. Btw, its supposed to be exco day on youth day! The last time I saw them, the Dodo birds were still alive. D:
I need to do sthg to my hair. Its damn boring omg. Cut. straighten. bald? ayeee mah fannn.
Okay wait, I've to say something.

Sometimes, life seems like such a bitch and everything just seems so unfair. Its like as if everyones out there to get you and they just want to see you beak down and cry. I've said this like a trillion times before, but really, the world is not as cruel as it seems and, god is always fair. (: Cheer up okay. Faith wont fail you. So many people seem so upset lately. D: and its not because of the CTs! (haha not funny) Aye, sometimes I really doubt myself when I say things to cheer people up. I'll be so pissed off if I were them. Like wth, "everything happens for a reason"?! Come up with something more original please. I've such nice friends, really. Oh, thankyou for all the random jiayou, stupid jokes msgs. It really made a diff esp, on thursday night. So touchedzxzxz (:
You know sometimes its so much easier believing that people are really as innocent as they may seem. Its so disappointing to hear of ulterior motives, manipulative intentions and warped words. Ohwell. Aye, but who are you to talk about disappointments when, you're full of it to begin with?

I'm addicted to katy perry. Like :O right. Haha. Watch the 'thinking of you' and 'mannequin' video! Its really nice. Okay, i'm going to catch up on gossip girl!! btw, i lost my mouse pad so, i'm using a post-it in its place. HAHAH. Okay, xoxo, gossipgirl.

Happy belated 18th Chewyoeyjoey dear (:
I miss our long hearttoheart talks at grandstand while, everyone else had MT lessons last yr!

/Cause I know we swore forever
But it seems so far away
Dont you think we're just too young
To play these grown up games?

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♥ Monday, June 29, 2009

12:31 AM

Hello. I'm so excited now cos so many things are about to happen. Now, Tonight and tomorrow. Hahah. Omg, shit. omg, this is too exciting and i think i'm going to spill the beans everywhere and ruin surprises, as usual. anw, haiyahhh I've been having wardrobe malfunctions lately. I've gotten tired of wearing things more than twice. okay, new clothes, here i come. (after CTs D:) i'mscrewedforctsbtw.Hohoho. oh and i cant wait to watch balletunderthestars. I cant wait for the lady HAHA concert. HAHA, gaga. And i'm excited for the next flea. wts, thats so far away. Okay, S wants me to go, stuff myself with food to stop myself from talking too loudly and ruining things. wlaooo. HAHA, okay bye.
I shall NOT post for two weeks cos, i'll be too busy FIGHTINGFIRE before each paper. I forsee two berryfairyyucky weeks. ):you'llsurviveyou'llsurvive. hooray okay bye.

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♥ Wednesday, June 24, 2009

12:49 AM

The sky looks really pretty tonight. Its littered with specs of glitter. The harder you stare, the more stars you see. The sky always leaves you in awe. So does God. And so did new found understanding on the following sentence. (:
But, once again, i realise that its these things that you dont have expectations of, that often leave you in awe. Somehow, expectations always leave you disappointed. The lack of it make you a muchmuchmunchymuch happier and a more appreciative person. Haha, really!! It takes a huge burden off others and yourself!

"Beauty expressed by a artisit cannot awaken in us an emotion which is kinetic or a sensation which is purely physical. It awakens, or ought to awaken, or induce, or ought to induce, an esthetic stasis, an ideal pity or an ideal terror, a stasis called forth, prolonged, and at last dissolved by what i call the rhythm of beauty." -APAYM
I've new found interest on philosophy and astronomy.
Anw, i'm humpityhungry and i feel like having supersupper at merrymaxwell nownownow. :O (thats a hungry mouth!)

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♥ Monday, June 22, 2009

11:05 PM

Heres a months worth of pictures!

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♥ Sunday, June 21, 2009

11:41 PM

This hols is going to end when I finally get started with work. gdoubleodjob. Joey would have said, "can you stop singing every line!" HAHA. Anw, i'm finally kind of settled down after all the renovations. At least there aint anymore ugly boxes everywhere. Buttt, my study table and wardrobe is only arriving mid july thereabouts. So now i've an excuse to fail CTs. How can you study wthout a stud table mum?! Anw I dont get any studying done at home or when i'm alone either so, hello BK and espl lib. Oh oh, my walls match my nails. HAHA. Hot pink yo. (bimbo ttm. faints) Andddd, I've a space for mr lappie right beside me bed (me bed?HAHA) so, now i can lie dwn and use the com without putting ontop of me. Okay, i know you dont get the picture but, its okay, its alright, vickyvicky fight fight fight. shit, i'm damn really (HAHA) tired. LOOK AT THE TYPOS. Haha. Sleeping at 3-4am and waking up at 9am has its side effects. No i dont wake up at 9 to study. I wishhh omg. I've to wake up at 9 so that the contractors wont catch me in bed! I'm going to sleep tonight and wake up when i'm like 30. With a meaningful career, nice white shophouse with a twirling staircase and a rose garden, two morally upright and adorable children and lots of old friends whom I still keep in touch with. Husband? Depends. Yay, sounds good. I can dream about that later. Haha. Imagine if you could choose what to dream of everynight?

PAEPLE were over at my house the other day and we had lots of fun, as usual. Missed happy pie! Anw, what mary talked about over monopoly kinda left me in awe even after all of them left. (btw, i want to go to camobodia help build homes too!) It felt so weird to have felt what she's felt when i'm not supossed to? I dont know. That left me really confused about my placing and stuff. And the scary thing is that such situations have become so common lately. Ohwell, god's got a plan for us all. (:

Having stomacheflu sucks ttbm. No more diets for now omg. I cant go to a doctor cos, they'll send me to tantockseng for a check up. Phuket doesnt have H1N1, reallyyyy. Nobody believe me. ): I've been over dosing on charcoal pills haha. I wonder if you can use it to draw. Alrighty, happy last week of hols everybodyzzzz. StudySleepShop. The 3 essential asSes. (haha, yes s. You're dabomb) And I shall study hardsmartwtv for 5 days and playshoplikemadwtv for 2days. Yesyes, 5 full days. watch me man! HAH. We dont want to regret when we get our Alvl certs, do we? Btw, i've grown to hate making small talk veryverymunchymuch. Antisociale101. Today morning was a testimony to that. Oh, and i'm really sorry for the slip&short smses and the non existant replies. Iphone is not sms friendly. Sadnoise. Oh, (i promise that this will be the last 'oh') I've stopped eating KFC and MACS chickens for good. This is as of today. Go check peta and save the chickens priszzz. Alrighty, goodnight.sweet dreams.dont let the bed bugs bite. I wish i may, i wish i might, get the wish i make tonight. [22june] Happy birthday daddyayeee (:

/Oh, i wanna hit you just to see if you cry

I keep knocking on wood

Hoping there's a real boy inside

Cause you're not a man

You're just a mannequin

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♥ Wednesday, June 17, 2009

12:00 AM

Hello, i'm back to civilisation. ):
A week at phuket can do wonders to your work threashold. I cannot bring myself to study when i'm alone or when my parents are around. Reading just a few pages of lit makes me feel really sick and breatheless. HAHA, kill me please.
Spent an entire week lazing around by the beach, eating, sleeping, spa-ing, eating , eating and eating. Watched the prettiest sunset and had the best kind of luxury food and accomadation. I could have really gotten used to it there. I want to do backkkkkkk. okay stop whinning. Actually, we did all more stuff but i'm just too lazy to get into the details. Haha, wtv. I just want to go back. ): Oh, but even then the surrounding wasnt all rainbows and butterflies. When you're lazing by the private beach, by just looking over the boundaries you can see alot of really poor thai people, young and old alike, slogging like shit in the hot sun, begging tourists to but whatever their selling. Hotel beaches have security guards and boundaries to keep these people away. Its really sad and it makes you think about how life's so unfair sometimes. When you've so much time to think, these things could really get to you. And the worst thing is that, it reallyreally bothered me then but now I guess I partly loss the feeling. How can this kind of a feeling be so momentary? ugh, i'm horrible. And my body sucks cos, i had my period the entire week overseas. Talking bout horrible, omg i'm horribly fat. So fat that for the first time in my life i've had the discipline to be on a successful diet for the past two days. Hooray. Okay, its just been two days. Nthg to hooray about. Shit i'm talking to myself.

Had AGM before leaving. It felt too abrupt and sudden. The jnrs were reallyreally sweet and all. Though, touch was never really a huge part of my jc life or sthg like that (it feels weird digging up all these buried thoughts after a week of escaping reality), I really did treasure time spent with the rest of the truggers and, I do miss trgs and houlle roulle. I might actually miss being scared of coach which is strangely funny. They were and always will be a great team. (: Aye, lifes like that sometimes. Everything begins with an end in mind. Even friendship. Its even got the word end in it. Nothing last forever and thats the beauty of it all. Global warming and depletion of nat reources yo. Haha, whatever man.

okay, i need to hang the clothes. Its my turn today. ugh. Oh and my house is still under renovation. I miss saap alottt. Havent seen Mg in a pretty long while. Miss them too! Meeting horny, kong and varru on sunday, yay. The pae doods are coming over to my condo on thurs. Double yay. I've got alot of money waiting to be spent HAHA. triple yay. i'm going to fail my upcoming CTs and life is going to suck pretty badly when school reopens. Ultimate yay. SOS please someone help me (haha, stupid song) I dont want the holidays to end and i refuse, simply refuse to go back to school. Yeah, saying is one thing and doing is another, ugh. I've no bloody guts so, yeah wtv. ): hello MOH, please extend the hols by another week. We wouldnt want some massive viral spread, would we? Okay, I shd really hang the clothes now. Shit, i feel hungry. Okay, goodnight and goodbye. (: Please go study and remind me to study too. Oh hello study buddy!! You're the best. Manymany loves. haha (:

Seconds, hours, so many days

You know what you want, but how long can you wait?

Every moment last forever.

When you feel you've lost your way.

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♥ Tuesday, June 09, 2009

12:04 PM

Now it's gonna get harder
And it's gonna burn brighter
And it's gonna feel tougher, each and every day,
So let me say that I love you,
You're all I've ever wanted,
All I've ever dreamed of to come

And I'd swim the ocean for you,
The ocean for you,
Whoa oh, Kelsey

Yay, i'm leaving in a couple of hours. (:
Goodbye.

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♥ Wednesday, June 03, 2009

11:45 PM

Okay, half the year just flew by without me doing anything substantial. Woah, coolness (Haha, bf this is all your fault!) I've majorly lost all sense of time and direction. And each day seems just about being happy, having as much fun as possible and taking things really slowly and calmly, one at a time. [Isnt it how life should be?] It feels like i've retired. HAHA.

Lets get narrative.
Last friday. Had a pretty nice, longggg chat with JS over lunch. Happiness. (HAHA, bf!) Celebrated Athalie's birthday at short pant's house with mary, jamie and happy pie, later that evening! Had our wonderfully meaningful conversations yet again and a nice sisterhood family dinner. Miss them already! Double happiness. (:
Saturday. Violin and family time. Oh, had really good food for lunch and dinner. And I gained like 1kg. Greattt. Missed saap though. sadness.
Sunday. Really's surprise bday celebration! We caught her in bed omg. Haha. Yay, it was such a nice cedar environment. Such a homey feeling. Kathleen & I took a million pictures., haha. Then, it was tuition at town with jer! (:
Monday. Jamjam's birthday. Happiness. Caught monsters vs aliens, 3D. I fell asleep for abit. Haha, there were alot of random, funny bits but, otherwise ... Had lunch and our usual gift presentations. We took a million pictures as if we'd never see each other again. Haha. Started packing my rubbish into boxes for renovation. Ugh, its so tedious. Spent the entire night figuring out my iphone in vain and frustration. Sadness. My dad's reallyreally sweet for surprising me with it butbutbut, he's so cute&funny for not telling me that he hadnt bought the memory card yet! Faints. Haha, but its okay.
Tuesday. Spent 2hours travelling to and fro school for a two hour lesson. Sadness. Met wini at bugis to study. She studied while I read Urban, mind your body and BP. I attempted to study but, everything seemed so uninteresting yuck. I'm going to have to be a grasscutter at this rate ): Ohwell. Anw, we went shopping later in evening. Happiness.
Wednesday. Woke up around ten and got all ready to study with my notes, hot chocolate and 2lotus bao. Then, my hand reached out to the remote and I ended up spending the rest of the morning and early afternoon watching 90210. Rushed to meet jer for tution. We were so late omg! Then it was SAAP on a wednesday, which makes it a WAAP. Haha. They came over to Icon for a swim. Only bf & I ended up swimming/playing in the water and thats when she started the whole happiness, sadness thing. Haha. Went to maxwell for dinner/supper. Yay, Maxwell porridge! Da bomb. Talked for almost three hours about everything under the moon. Happiness.

Imagine if everyone really stated their emotions so blatantly. In a matter of time , i think, emotions will just lose its meaning. Likewise, things and actions just lose its meaning when they become so overly used. People just get immune to it and it no longer holds any meaning. ohwell.
I'm too lazy to upload any pictures. I shall get productive tmr and stop procrastinatinggggg! yes, i must. Theres school tomorrowwwww yuck ): Can i just retire now ugh.

There's a wild wind blowing

Down the corner of my street

Every night there the headlights are glowing

There's a cold war coming

On the radio I heard

Baby it's a violent world

Oh love don't let me go

Won't you take me where the streetlights glow

I could hear it coming

I could hear the sirens sound

Now my feet won't touch the ground

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♥ Thursday, May 28, 2009

10:25 PM

It's not a silly little moment,
It's not the storm before the calm.
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love that we've been working on.

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms.
Nobody's gonna come and save you,
We pulled too many false alarms.

I was the one you always dreamed of,
You were the one I tried to draw.
How dare you say it's nothing to me
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.

I'll make the most of all the sadness,
You'll be a bitch because you can.
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand.

All I heard the entire day, was this song echoing on repeat in my head. The part on 'I'll make the most of all the sadness, you'll be a bitch because you can' is so sad omg.
Walls have eyes, walls have ears. Eyes and ears have friends who tell. Well, hearing about your facade was pretty disappointing but, life's like that sometimes. So ohwell. Its just annoying when people dont practice what they preach. When people put on a righteous front to cover up all the evil intentions going on in the heart. When "theres daggers in mens smiles". "Look like the innocent flower but be the serpent under it" "Theres no art to find the mind's construction in the face" "Make your faces vizards to your heart" Haha, macbethhhh. But, who am I to speak like a saint when, everyone's like that and it's almost human nature. Its just pretty sad though.

The whole JJvsRJ controversy is just plain dumb. Damn the intern for getting his facts wrong, srsly. Though its partially true and most of us have talked about it from time to time, the exaggeration was totally uncalled for. The extremes Newpaper has to resort to is just appalling.

TGIF. omg, I can smell the holdays! (: I'm feeling pretty excited about all the wrong things. Haha
Anw, yay i'm so very proud of Puffer fish and joey!!
I'm ending school at 3.30 tmr despite, the half day. Kill me please. It's going to be an exciting evening, though. Secret!
okay, time to study for bio test, ugh.

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♥ Saturday, May 23, 2009

11:04 PM

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

I've been trying to recall why the above seemed so familar since lit yesterday! Anddd I finally figured it out yay! Omg, do you rmb the song we made up and how we competed to memories the whole sonnet? (: Time flys.
Btw, I really feel like I havent exercised my brain in a really long while. Ohwell

Houlle Roulle played well today esp, the 2nd and 3rd match (: Juniors played well too!
Oh and yay, they liked my heart shaped watermelons which were tediously cut with love, haha. Nearly fell asleep during rehearsal in the evening. Had famous balastier chicken rice and Tau sar piah (From house of tau sar piah. So cheesy right! We laughed at it for a pretty long while.) for dinner. Dinner was so worth the wait :D
I need to complete tuition homework, study for bio and geog test and, get a new phone pronto. If only these things would just do itself. Haha
Balastier again tmr morning and to town(finally!) in the afternoon. Yay. Kathleennnn!

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♥ Thursday, May 21, 2009

10:02 PM

Today was cedar's crosscountry. ): I'd give the world to either be back in Cedar or just lost somewhere in New Zealand.

Walking away from trng today; I felt like a mess. I didnt want to go cos, coach would be there and training would be rather pointless for me anyway. I couldnt go because I did give my word to my mum that I would stop Touch cos, I chose to perform for my violin recital in 3 weeks time anyway. And then theres this phone call thing and etc etc etc. I dont know why i'm caught in the middle of a million things at once. Okay, please let the dust settle down before I go overseas. ): I cant bring myself to do anything substantial cos my mind feels all over the place and i'd do anything to not think about things that I ought to be thinking about and settling, once and for all.

On a lighter note, the boring talk today was kinda fun cos, the four of us were in our own fortune-telling world. I'm pretty glad kris won. Wednesday was a pretty good day. I've eaten a banana and pau everyday, this week. Anddd, i think, I might finally be having Bak kut Teh for dinner tmr, yay yay yay (:
Btw, a sheep with no legs is a cloud. Haha

Where were you

When everything was falling apart?

In the end

Everyone ends up alone

Losing her

The only one who's ever known

Who I am, Who I'm not, who I wanna be

No way to know

How long she will be next to me

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♥ Tuesday, May 19, 2009

10:55 PM

My foolscape is eating my words, seriously ):
Even after spending hours at it, one banana and 3 scopes of ice cream I can barely smell the supposed three page essay. Omg, this is so depressing. Theres so much left to do other then the essay itself. & i'm cramming two tuitions back to back tmr so, i can get it over and done with in one day. TAAP was cancelled today. Was really looking forward to it though. ): One last violin recital coming up soon. At least, theres sthg to look forward to. The day I end my last paper on Dec3, yanying & I shall sign up for ballet lessons, yay. I'm losing my patience waiting. I think, thursday's going to be my last training in my entire life.
I foresee ( omg, i miss 4C) a really bad wednesday! I bet it's going to rain.
omg this feeling inside is killing me. Its like stabbing me every few minutes and just killing me. Freak

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The above made so much more sense after reading my horoscope for today:
You seem to have a hard time putting your thoughts into words today. There are times when your head says one thing and your mouth seems to want to say something else. Take long breaks if you are working on any important presentation or paperwork today.
HAHAHA, it's like right-on, omg.

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♥ Friday, May 15, 2009

9:22 PM

Suddenly, theres so many things to read, omg. I need to read three more issues of broader perspectives, stupid Times thats been pilling since forever, History of Love, Portrait of the artist, King lear, Duchess of malfi, great expectations. I feel like dropping lit. And geog. and omg, everything. && My results are plunging. & I gained 0.6kg this week because of all the extremely sweet things i've been overloading myself with. I've eaten 25 creme-O biscuits over two days. Ate ice cream like every day of the week. I've been bingeing on nutella and peanut butter every morning. & i just keep having cravings for soft, fluffy and sweet food! (Eve spent very long giving suggestions on what to eat!HAHA) Oh but, i only ate one pau this week! Haha. Okay but, i'm still going to be one of those people who are diagnosed with diabetes when their 20. ): I might as well, quit school and travel the world or something nowwwww!

I think having 3 day weekends and 4 day weekdays are perfect! Yay. TGIF.
Tuesday's rugby match at SA was pretty sad. Ended up not going for dinner as planned because we all kinda didnt have the mood to. Everyone on the field was giving their all and yet, time was running out and somehow it wasnt enough. Thats the thing about sporting competitons, there has always got to be one winner and one loser. And sometimes even giving your everything can be insufficient. Someone gets joy through someone elses tears. Its so different from a performance when everyone gets to walk away at the end with a smile just so long as you give it your all and dont screw up. Or like SYF when your judged depending on your own merit, not your competitors. I dont remember ever walking away upset from a violin recital or drama performance. I think, touch will be the first and last sports i ever touch. Pun intented, haha. oh, but somehow, swimming competitons felt so different. Maybe, I just dont remember how it felt. Oh the troubles of time.

Alrighty, I hope I can make it for SAAP tmr. I miss my (quotes jeralyn) 'Homies" :D
I should move my sorry self out of bed and do sthg more productive pronto. Ohoh, theres Monsters Inc. showing this weekend. I can watch it for the millionth time. Yay.
p.s. I really feel like watching 17again, haha. p.s.s I need to go town soon.

/There's so many things I have to say

I'll stay up all night to hear about your day

We do the best we can in a small town

Act like kids in love when the sun goes down

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